2012 to 2013

Five years ago on New Year’s Eve/New Year’s Day (sorry I can’t remember the exact time-it was the famous NYE toilet-breaking party —> don’t ask!), B and I officially got together. ❤ And I will always remember 2012 as the year we got married. We had a wonderful, wonderful wedding, and I am blessed to have a man that absolutely adores me.

In many ways, this has been a rough year for me, especially the second half of it. I’ve dealt with even more health issues and a descent into a major depression. But, I am extremely proud that this fall and winter I have taken back control of my mental and physical health. At the beginning of 2012, I had a loose goal in my mind that I wanted to accomplish that this year. It took me until the end of the year, but I got started on the journey. Although I am far from being really there yet, I am moving forward more and more, taking my life back. I am determined and absolutely motivated to achieve LIFE again in 2013.

While I am glad this year is coming to a close because I love New Year’s for the fresh beginning it brings, and I’m excited for 2013, here are the blessings from 2012: we got married, B got promoted (TWICE!), and I began the journey of taking back my life.

In 2013, I am looking forward to:

  • buying a house!
  • Taking a class starting in March to begin my journey to have my own career
  • moving more and more towards being healthy and ALIVE again
  • becoming social again – making friends and starting a new volunteer job at the animal shelter
  • loving myself and doing ME
  • our trip to Montana in July for my cousin’s wedding
  • continuing to grow my relationship with God

{I’m really scared to buy a house, it’s probably one of the biggest leaps for me of anything I’ve ever done. But it’s one of those things that I just have to leap into. It’s not just the money, it’s also that it’s overwhelming to me to move again, even just across town, when I’ve just gotten used to the bus stops over here and how to get around in my little area. I have moved every single year into a different place since I turned 18. But it will be so worth it if/when we find the right place. House buying right now is a different experience than I imagined having for buying my first home. I say this because we will most likely have to move again in a couple of years. I always envisioned buying a house that I would get to settle down in. I was even willing to wait until we got back to Colorado someday to have that. But I am having to remold my expectations. We put an offer in for a house yesterday. It’s the house I’ve liked most of everything we’ve seen. Besides the scary part of physically moving, I would LOVE to own this house. It’s still near a bus stop and there is a community pool. I COULD WALK TO A POOL! It’s the perfect size and layout. And it has a great little yard. Also, it’s in our price range and actually in a safe neighborhood! I love it. Some things are scary, but you have to think of the greater potential for happiness once you get over the fear—> my motto right now. I would totally not mind to stay in this townhouse either. It has been my lifelong dream to own a house, but I know it will happen someday. B is the one who really wants to buy one now.}

One thing I’m going to have to do in the new year, is find a way to live my own life while being in a relationship. I have to have faith that my husband will always love me and only me. I can’t let marriage hold me back. Being married, I have the potential for even greater happiness. If I would just let myself fulfill my own dreams, I could have love and my own life too. The fact is, I’m already married, and I just have to believe—> KNOW —> I can have both things. I deserve that. I can spend my life being afraid, or I can live my own life and KNOW that everything will be wonderful. I have to simplify things: life is about good experiences, loving people, and giving back. That’s what I want. I want to be a person of integrity.

See a theme here? FAITH.

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Here’s to an amazing 2013, in which I find myself again, embrace myself and believe in my right to enjoy and own my own life, get healthy again, and surrender in ways that will lead me back to living. It’s going to be hard, but I’m never going to stop fighting or seeking God for strength. I’m going to, finally, find faith in the possibility.

I repeat: some things are scary, but you have to think of the greater potential for happiness that will be there once you get over the fear.

Enjoying the sun

I wish you all a wonderful New Year!

Closing Words for 2012…and Opening into 2013

These are amazing last lines from some wonderful books. To me, they created a great image that I envision going forth into the New Year.

Wuthering Heights
by Emily Brontë
“I lingered round them, under that benign sky; watched the moths fluttering among the heath, and hare-bells; listened to the soft wind breathing through the grass; and wondered how any one could ever imagine unquiet slumbers for the sleepers in that quiet earth.”

Gone with the Wind

“After all, tomorrow is another day.”

Gone with the Wind, Margaret Mitchell

Watership Down

“He reached the top of the bank in a single, powerful leap. Hazel followed; and together they slipped away, running easily down through the wood, where the first primroses were beginning to bloom.”

Watership Down, Richard Adams {one of my favorite books as a kid}

P.S. I Love You

“In the meantime, she would just live.”

P.S. I Love You, Cecelia Ahern

 

Missing Colorado and What’s Next

I had a great Christmas trip to Colorado. I nearly felt like my old self again. I had a few jitters but overall the trip went wonderfully. Now I am back in Colorado and feeling lonely and homesick, although I’m doing better today than yesterday.

I’m always in a conundrum (one of my favorite words) because I want to show you guys more pictures but I want my blog to remain anonymous too.

We flew into Denver on Saturday the 22nd. On Sunday we went to the Van Gogh exhibit at the Denver Art Museum. I feel like my anemia is getting a little better and I had more energy there. I really enjoyed the exhibit even though I got a little exhausted towards the end from walking around so much. They had a lot of his earlier works that I had never seen and you were able to really see the evolution of his painting style. I love art museums. Except for when they have exhibitions, the Denver Art Museum isn’t my favorite, but this exhibit was awesome.

On Christmas Eve we had a seafood boil, perhaps a new tradition we are starting! It was delicious! My dad bought crab, shrimp, mussels, sausage, corn, and potatoes. The crab legs were the best. I hadn’t had those for years. We got a plastic tablecloth and bibs and just ate all over the table. B and I stayed with my parents, obviously, and my two sisters were there every day during our stay. My grandma was also in town and staying with my parents. For the seafood boil, my uncle and his family also came over (from my dad’s side). Since I was little, we have always spent Christmas Eve with my dad’s family and Christmas day with my mom’s family. That’s always how I imagined doing it with my own family, but B’s parents live in Washington state and mine live in Colorado, so we have to split the holidays. If I had it my way we would always spend Thanksgiving with his family and Christmas with mine! That’s what we did the last two years. But of course that wouldn’t be fair. One of the unfortunate compromises of marriage. Next year we will most likely spend Christmas with his family. It will be my first Christmas not with my family in my whole life. Maybe I can convince his family to come to Denver for Christmas! They don’t have any extended family in Washington anyways, it’s just them. That would be fun. Our families really like each other. We want to buy a house next year, so I also look forward to potentially hosting Thanksgiving here. Well, I would also be really nervous about that because I’ve never cooked my own turkey before! We’ll see.

All of the time spent with family made me realize how much I want to live near them and at least be more social here in California. I always thought of myself as someone who likes to be alone, but I realized in the past few months that that’s not really the case as much as I thought. I am definitely an introvert, but that means that I de-stress by being alone, and just need more alone time than an extrovert, but not that I don’t like people. Everyone needs social time and companionship, and I am not getting enough of that in my life. I get some social anxiety, but every time I am around people, I feel so good! I always wonder later what I was anxious about.

Last night, I joined several groups on meetupcom. I joined two women’s groups for women in their 20s and 30s in my area, and one dog-related group. I really plan to go to some of the events to make some friends. They have coffee dates, movie nights, dinners, etc. Oh, and I also joined a book club! I’m really excited about that one. I’m just so isolated and really need to meet people, which is hard to do when you’re not in school anymore and you don’t have a job. I also have a friend that my husband works with that I want to invite to do more things. Our social life together has gone down quite a bit because my husband got promoted, which is great!, but now all of our old friends work for him so he isn’t really allowed to hang out with them because it’s not appropriate. But that doesn’t mean I can’t hang out with them! So I want to invite this girl he works with to go to a movie or something just me and her. I sound so pathetic right now, but this is something I really need to work on. I am also in therapy group right now that is only women and I have made one friend there that I want to try to hang out with.

Tonight we are going to meet up with B’s best friend in San Marino because he’s in town so I am excited for that. I also get to bring my dog to play with his dog. They just love each other so that will be fun! I did miss my dog while I was in Colorado. He had to stay here at the boarding kennel. I found out they only let him out two times a day, so I am going to try to find a different one for the next time I travel because that made me angry. I want him to be well taken care of.

Ralphie

Upcoming plans:

  • I am all signed up to take a microbiology class in March to fulfill a prerequisite I need to enter a Master’s program in nursing. I’m really excited about it. I finally decided that it was worth spending money on myself to pursue this dream. I’m still scared I will fail. But I would rather try than regret never trying. That type of regret is the worst.
  • B will be traveling a lot for work in January and February. I don’t want to be left here all by myself, so I am trying to plan some things. I want to go to Colorado again this spring so I am going to plan a trip in either February or March. Also my dad and my sister are going to San Diego to do some work on the house there in late January or February so I am planning to go down and stay with them during that time. I really had fun with my sisters over this recent trip. The one I have been estranged with for two years… we are slowly starting to talk more and more.
  • B and I are planning a trip to Santa Barbara sometime in the next couple of months. I can’t wait. I have been wanting to go visit the central coast for a long time.
  • I am going to begin volunteering at the local animal shelter in February. Still need to get my anxiety and agoraphobia under control, but I am determined to so I can do all of these things.

The best Christmas gifts I got? I got a pug shirt, pug calendar, and pug socks! I also got Rachael Ray’s new cookbook called “My Year in Meals”. It’s a really beautiful book and I can’t wait to try new recipes from it.

rachel-ray

How important is social time to you? How have you made new friends as an adult?

January Book Club

I have decided to pick a book of the month. I’m wondering if anyone would be interested in joining my monthly “book club”?
January’s pick is going to be “The Handmaid’s Tale” by Margaret Atwood.

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I am a big fan of Margaret Atwood’s book “Oryx and Crake”, and I have been wanting to read “The Handmaid’s Tale” for a long time. The book is about a dystopian world where fertility is in a huge decline and the few women that are still fertile are simultaneously very valued and treated as slaves. I think this is a very fascinating premise. I will post a book discussion towards the end of the month. Expect my already existent views on the morality of having children to pop up, just a warning. I think it will be interesting to hear what everyone thinks about this book. Let me know if you are interested in reading along!

The Real Definition of Health

I had more energy today. I mopped the floors, picked everything up, cleaned two of our bathrooms, and totally cleaned our master bedroom, which was just an absolute mess, including vacuuming! It feels great! I hope I didn’t tire myself out too much. I also made shrimp fried rice for dinner. Something I really want to work on is keeping our house cleaner. It feels so nice.

I had an awesome green smoothie for breakfast. I use a Magic Bullet to make it (actually, I use the generic version of a Magic Bullet). Here’s my recipe:

  • ¼ of an avocado OR ½ a frozen banana
  • 1/2 an apple (Granny Smith)
  • 1.5-2 cups of spinach (as much as I can fit in there)
  • 2/3 cup of filtered water (or more depending on the consistency you want it, I like mine a little more liquid)

That’s it! Then I just blend until it’s all smooth. Like I said, I like mine more watery. I decided today that I like it a lot better with the frozen banana. I guess I got a little sick of avocado, but doing it that way gives it great texture and adds the healthy fat! I usually have 1-2 pieces of peanut butter toast with it. It’s a great way for me to pack in more fruits and vegetables since I know I wouldn’t eat all those individually every day.

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I’ve been thinking a lot about how our society has a very skewed definition of health. Like we’ve forgotten the basic definition of it. Every “health” magazine you read can’t talk about the nutritional benefits of strawberries without somewhere mentioning in the small article how they also make you lose weight (or something like that, I know you can think of 1 million examples). It’s really starting to bother me. I’m not really talking about the “thin is in” thing. I’m just saying I wish when you said “I want to get healthy” or that a certain food is healthy, our minds didn’t jump to how that somehow equates to weight loss, but instead to what nutrients can be gained by eating certain foods. I keep saying that I am committed to eating healthier, and people look at me like I’m crazy because I am not overweight. It’s not about weight! You can be curvy and eat great and feel great. You can be on the leaner side and eat great and feel great. The opposite is true for both body types. You can be at a normal weight and eat terribly… and start to feel negative effects on your health because of it too!

I have just found that getting excited about the nutrients in food makes healthy eating fun. Instead of thinking, “Oh I shouldn’t/can’t eat that” about some sugary treat, I think about how much iron or magnesium or antioxidants a certain food is going to have in it and how awesome that is going to feel in my body. When I really think about it, I just don’t get why the words “healthy eating” make us automatically think about weight. How often when someone says they want to eat healthier do they really mean they want to lose weight? TOO often. Or at least that’s what we assume.

When I say I want to eat healthier, I really mean just that, pure and simple, I want to eat healthier. I want to focus on nutrients and fill my body with delicious, clean, nutrient-rich fuel.

I want my appetite back so I don’t have to try so hard to maintain my weight. Because I don’t want to lose weight. I just want to be healthy. Our society’s fixation with this makes it seem so wrong to gain weight even when you need to. Even when I’m not trying to avoid gaining weight (ie. not worrying about gaining weight), it just feels so weird to be okay with it, like that’s wrong, even though it’s not me telling myself it’s wrong. It’s just a foreign concept since it seems like everyone else is trying so hard to lose weight, or trying not to gain weight, or whatever. If you lose weight because of anxiety (hello, me), depression, the flu, diabetes, cancer, whatever, it seems like it’s rewarded even though you lost it because you are SICK or hurting. I know people that have gotten compliments on weight loss after they had pneumonia for two weeks. I think we should all just focus on our health. Let’s all remember what health really means, and how truly valuable it is.

Health is being able to DO things. Health is feeling vibrant, present and alive. Health is smiling and walking and swimming. Health is fully participating in life.

How do you define health?

Hiya

It is colder and rainy here so I’ve been snuggling up with my baby.

Pug Baby

Pug Baby

I am addicted to “Breaking Bad” (no pun intended)! Such a good show. I started it last week and I am already halfway through season three!

Still just really not feeling good. A little better but struggling. We are going to Colorado for Christmas so nervous about the trip in lieu of having to be in the hospital at Thanksgiving. I hope it goes okay. I am fighting so hard for my health. I will be taking more steps with that after the trip. I JUST WANT MY LIFE BACK!

Hope everyone is having a good week!

House Hunting

I caught a cold from my husband so I spent yesterday really sick. I know, I know…more health problems. I still don’t feel great today but a little better than yesterday.

I had my green smoothie again today after neglecting it for a few days and I must say I feel so much better when I have it. I am making it a priority to have one of those every.single.day. No excuses. Sadly, I have absolutely ZERO room in my diet for error right now. I have to make everything I eat count!

I also have to be patient, which is something I am particularly bad at. I am trying to pray a lot.

We went to look at several houses and townhouses on Saturday and ended up putting offers in for two of them! The one that is an actual house is very teeny tiny but it would be a good little starter home. It’s actually a very cute, older house that has been updated with new hardwood floors and a new kitchen and bathrooms. Three bedrooms but only 950 square feet! It has a humongous yard. We have been looking at some townhouses, a lot of them actually, but I just don’t feel like those would feel the same to me. They don’t feel like a real home. It kind of feels like we would still be renters, whereas buying an actual single-family house feels more real to me. That might seem weird, but it’s just the feeling I get. Of course the town houses are more affordable. I cannot believe how expensive tiny little houses are in California! This one we looked at on Saturday is the first one that is affordable but in a nice neighborhood. The only downside is that it has absolutely no closet and storage space. I mean virtually none! The closets in each bedroom are the size of a small coat closet! That’s the only thing we don’t know how we would work out (there’s also no real coat closet or linen closet to speak of). Despite that, after thinking about it a lot, I am hoping they take our offer on that house because I could really see us living there and it would only be temporary since we might have to move in a couple of years out of California or to a different location in California. It’s such a cute little house! Even contemplating buying her a house makes me feel like a real adult! It has an open floor plan flow look forward to entertaining there. And of course, there is a ton of outdoor entertaining space, which you can do virtually year-round here.

You know what else made me feel like an adult recently? Sending out our own Christmas cards for the first time! I ordered them from snapfish.com and I was really pleased with how they turned out. I put two wedding photos and a picture of our pug on there (of course). I sent most of them out last week.

B and I exchanged our Christmas presents early this weekend. I know, really early. We knew we didn’t want to (or couldn’t) take them all the way to Denver, and I guess we were both just so excited about giving them that we decided to do it. I got him a tablet (the Nexus 10 16GB), which he is so excited about…maybe too excited since he is already addicted to his phone and technology. What was I thinking?! Anyway, it is the most expensive present I have ever bought anybody. He got me a bistro set for our front porch so I can sit outside and read or journal. I’m really excited about that. It’s wicker and really cute.

I am just really, really hoping I feel better by Christmas (with the anemia and everything else).

What are your plans for Christmas?

What is the most expensive gift you have ever bought?

Any first time home-buying experience to share?

Iron-Deficiency Anemia

Last week I was diagnosed with iron deficiency anemia. I found out that my ferritin levels were very low (ferritin is a protein that helps your body store iron – thus this low level means that my body has very depleted iron stores). Most people think that when you’re anemic you just feel a nagging tiredness. I am here to tell you that in many people it is much more than that! I had been feeling increasingly horrible over the past couple of months. Symptoms: no energy, extreme fatigue, constant lightheadedness, frequent dizziness (which last week developed into constant dizziness even while lying down), blurred vision, restless leg syndrome (horrible!), numbness, heart palpitations, shortness of breath, and extreme weakness. I only found this out because I got an e-mail on the computer telling me I had an abnormal laboratory result. With Kaiser Permanente, you can make an account online and view your lab results yourself. Once I saw my ferritin results last Wednesday (November 21st), I immediately called the doctor’s office to try to talk to someone. They told me my regular doctor was out of town already for Thanksgiving and she wouldn’t be back until the following Monday. So I left a message for the doctor on call to call me back. I was feeling so terrible, I felt I needed to speak to someone right away to see if I was okay and what I should do. No one called me back. I ended up calling three times that day before a nurse finally called me back. She didn’t really know what she was talking about so I demanded to speak to a doctor. Then I had to wait for another call back from a doctor. I never actually got to speak to doctor that day. The same nurse just called me back with a message from the doctor telling me I had iron deficiency anemia and that I should take iron supplements and follow-up with my regular doctor the next week.

I was frustrated but went out to buy iron supplements that day (no one even told me how many milligrams to take – I have a Bachelors degree in biology with a focus in biochemistry so I used my own knowledge to figure everything out but it’s nice to have an expert to converse with for goodness sake!).

I can’t even explain to you guys how horrible I felt. I could not stop moving my legs, I was so anxious and jittery I felt like I was going crazy. The next day, on Thanksgiving, we had a flight out to Seattle to spend the holiday with B’s family. Something in me really knew I shouldn’t travel but I didn’t want to upset my husband. At the airport it was difficult for me to walk onto the plane but I managed. I told myself I would feel better in a couple of days taking iron supplements. At this point I still felt semi-okay. I didn’t feel dizzy if I was sitting down and if I just constantly rested I didn’t feel so weak.

We got to Seattle and I told everyone I had anemia so I would have to rest a lot. I laid on the couch all day and then went to sit up at the table to eat the Thanksgiving meal. I felt REALLY badly that I couldn’t help my mother-in-law with any of the preparations. Normally I would just push myself to help even if I was feeling under the weather, but it’s a testament to how weak I was that I literally could not help even if I tried. I had to go lay down immediately after Thanksgiving dinner because it was difficult for me to even sit up in a chair. I didn’t have much of an appetite but I was still forcing myself to eat three meals a day (with lots of meat in them!) so I didn’t get weaker. The next day, on Friday, I was even worse. I was so tired I couldn’t even talk. That night I finally asked my husband to take me to the hospital because I was having chest pain and felt like I couldn’t breathe. I could barely even get up to go to the bathroom. On the way the hospital, I was lying down on the back seat of the car. When we arrived, I sat up and got so dizzy I just fell over and face planted on to the car seat. This freaked everybody out and someone ran in to get me a wheelchair.

In the end, I’m okay. They never really figured out anything more at the hospital. They ran a ton of tests in the ER and then actually decided to admit me to the regular hospital where I spent TWO nights (which is pretty rare in my experience!). I don’t regret going because I think I literally needed to be on complete bed rest and that’s what I got there.

The doctor I had when I was in inpatient was pretty concerned about me. She didn’t think the anemia was so severe that it would cause this intense of symptoms. For the FIFTH time in my life, she mentioned that she wanted me to follow up with a neurologist at home to evaluate me for MS. Why did she say this? Because this is the third or fourth episode I have had like this this year (although this one was by far the most severe) that included the same strange eye symptoms (eye pain and vision changes) accompanied by dizziness, severe fatigue, confusion, and numbness in my legs. I was also having trouble talking. Like I could think the words but they wouldn’t come out. I have had more minor episodes of things like this for years, including one episode with just my eyes in college when I was much healthier in all other respects than I am now.

It’s my suspicion that I have iron deficiency anemia AND some kind of neurological issue. I had actually already had a follow-up neurology appointment yesterday but I literally couldn’t go because I would have had to take the bus there for over an hour and I felt too weak to do it. So I rescheduled… And of course couldn’t get an appointment until the end of January, but that’s okay.

My primary care doctor keeps focusing over and over on my anxiety. I’m telling you, I have had anxiety my whole life. I know a lot about anxiety and I truly believe it has a lot of psychosomatic symptoms associated with it. However, anxiety did NOT cause me to get so weak like that. I used all of my coping techniques, I took Klonopin (a tranquilizer in the Valium class (benzodiazepine class)), and I still had these symptoms 24/7 for weeks.

So my plan is this, right now I want to see how I can much I can improve with iron supplementation and overhauling my diet. I know my diet has been terrible for a long time. I was actually starting to improve on it before this happened, although it obviously wasn’t enough. In a way I’m kind of glad I had to push my neurology appointment back so I can see how much better I feel by then with diet and iron pills.

I know I’ve gotten this because of a) not getting enough iron and protein in my diet, and b) I have a copper IUD for birth control and although I otherwise LOVE it, it does make your periods heavier, which leads to more iron loss. It typically takes 2-3 months to rebuild your iron stores. So it could be a long time before I start feeling totally better from that.

Since I started taking iron pills, a few symptoms have gone away, namely the restless legs and the pain in my legs. I was in the hospital from Friday evening to Sunday evening. We flew home on Monday morning. I was afraid I wouldn’t be able to make it home but the hospital doctor said I could fly if I felt okay. I just took wheelchairs in the airport and I made it. Since Tuesday, I have slowly started to feel better to the point where I am still lightheaded and in a brain fog (I think the worst part of this), but I am not as weak or tired and the dizziness has gone away. I can get around my house and take a shower standing up now, etc.

Per my doctor’s advice on Tuesday, she said to take two 65 mg pills of ferrous sulfate (iron) a day. I looked back at lab results I had done last February, and my ferritin level was at the low end of normal. So it’s probably been steadily decreasing ever since. I had gone to the Dr. in February with the same symptoms, although less severe, and to me, this still doesn’t explain why it has relapsed and remitted in between, but whatever. Maybe that just varied with how well I was taking care of myself. I’ve been doing a lot of research online, and the literature + real people’ s testimonials show that all doctors don’t always take ferritin all that seriously, but many, many people experience the same symptoms as I do.

So here’s my game plan:

  1. Take two iron pills per day
  2. Take a vitamin C supplement every day with the iron (please read my article here on the differences between animal-based iron and plant-based iron and on what different vitamins and minerals affect iron absorption rates – vitamin C increases iron absorption)
  3. Take a vitamin D supplement every day (when I saw the neurologist in August he ordered a vitamin D blood test and mine was at the low end of normal; a few years ago it was also at the low end of normal and my doctor told me to take vitamin D supplements before it became a deficiency so I’m going to employ that advice now)
  4. Take a B-complex vitamin supplement every day (in August, the neurologist also told me to take B vitamins for my nerve inflammation, which I never did, but now that I’m getting serious about my health I’m going to!)
  5. Eat 3 balanced meals per day (I have been doing so much better at this!)
  6. Increase my intake of iron-containing foods and protein (I’m actually excited to eat healthier and to try a bunch of new foods!)
  7. Eat at least one full serving of meat a day and at least one full cup of green leafy vegetables
  8. I am supposed to start taking Celexa for my anxiety, which I am at my wits end with, so even though I really don’t want to, I’m going to try it to see if that helps with the anxiety or anything else. I have taken it before, years ago. I took it today and it’s making me feel jittery which I don’t like. If I try and really feel like I can’t do it, I am going to do numbers 1-7 for a full month and see if I feel better before I add in more side effects. Either way, the game plan with this is to love myself and rest as I need!

I haven’t been able to go swimming for over a week. I’m going to try on Saturday but if I need to take one more week off it’s okay!

I have to remember that I just have to be patient with all of this because it will be a while before I feel better. I am almost glad this happened to me because it has solidified my motivation to take care of my health.

Has anyone else ever had anemia? What was your experience with it?

How was everyone else’s Thanksgiving? I’m excited for Christmas! I really hope I feel a lot better by then because we are going to Denver to see my family.

Gratitude Challenge, a list

 

I am thankful for…

10 – the kindess of my primary care doctor AND psychiatrist this week (both appointments went well – finally!) 🙂

11 – the nice people we have met here in southern Cali

12 – for “Call My Maybe” because that song makes me smile

13 – for all my good memories and that I have time to get better right now

14 – for all the authors that write the wonderful, creative books I read

15 – of course, for my family

16 – for good quotes like this one: “[Today] is a new day. You shall begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be cumbered with your old nonsense.” —Ralph Waldo Emerson

17 – every day for the gorgeous weather in southern California!!!

18 – for me being determined to change right now and to love myself and improve my life

19 – for my husband who always makes me laugh

20 – even though my appetitie isn’t good right now, for peanut butter AND PopChips! – and for the healing power of food

21 – that we have a safe place to live

22 – for the color blue – my favorite – and for all the colors of nature

23 – hard to be thankful for energy right now – as I have none and just found out I have iron-deficiency anemia with associated HORRIBLE symptoms –  but I’m thankful my doctor thought to check my ferritin levels so I can fix this

24 – for the spirit of adventure I have that keeps me going in this life

I got a little ahead since I am heading to Seattle tomorrow for Thanksgiving with my in-laws. I will update more on my health soon.

Have a Happy Thanksgiving!