I am really feeling the need to blog right now to keep myself on track today. I am having quite the flareup of the nerve disorder symptoms today, so I can’t type and I am really annoyed because I want to do a lot on the computer. so, as usual when I use my dictation program, please excuse mytypos and weird things.
Here is the news going on in my life regarding my career path/finding fulfillment: I found out on Thursday that I won’t be able to attend nursing school due to my disability. They just can’t accommodate me enough for me to obtain licensure, even though I would be able to work in an office setting (doctor’s offices etting as opposed to a hospital). of course, I’m really discouraged. If you could’ve lost as to what to pursue next. I just really want a job. I am fully willing to work at PetsMart or something, but even they are hiring right now. So I am back to potentially pursuing writing, continuing to search for jobs online, and just struggling to accept this situation and brainstorm ideas to find fulfillment somehow.
I have felt so lost for the last 5 to 6 weeks about that stuff, but now I am getting a little more determined to work on it like I was in the spring and tried to set up some things for myself with writing or other jobs, and volunteer again. I’m strangely feeling stronger than I thought I would be about this disappointing news. So what to do next? Just keep trying, and fighting, and brainstorming.
I keep wondering what God wants from me. For a long time, I felt like I was just meant to her goal and get better mentally and physically, to get through B’s deployment and let my symptoms improve with rest and medication. Now I feel like I’m in a better place, especially mentally, where I could handle pursuing something again, but I don’t know how to get there and fight against all of these limitations.
I guess I could work on my book again, but I’m finding the creative process so hard. I have a lot of ideas, maybe I should just start writing again and see how it flows.
I don’t really have any questions for you about this stuff today, but I loved hearing about everyone else’s charity ideas and made me really think about volunteering again. aAnd about what type of business I could start if I could….?
so I’m going to just ask some questions about blogging:
When you comment on my site, and I respond, it do you get a notification that I responded? That’s something that really bugs me about other blogs, when I don’t know if they responded and I have to check back later. So I’m hoping you guys get a notification from me.