I had a wonderful weekend (considering Thurs-Sat my weekend). Especially Saturday when we got to go to Pasadena again (aka my favorite place on Earth) to a friend’s birthday party and made lots of new friends, which is awesome. A lot of them live out east over here so hopefully we can hang out. B said he was so worried about making friends here. I laughed when he said that because I wasn’t at all. That guy makes friends, GOOD friends, everywhere he goes. I knew he would make more here for the both of us. 😉
Then a horrrrrible day yesterday (Sunday). Somehow, it just passed today. Trying to look at the bright side about it, I felt really close to God yesterday and while I still don’t understand why we are on planet Earth, it gave me some clarity of thought about what I want and need. I am still very scared, but I have to just keep setting things up.
Working on that list of what I need. We never had time to go look at dogs last week. So that is the big thing for this coming weekend. B felt so bad about it. He is so good to me. He ordered me a Dragon dictation program.
And I applied to a job I really want last Wednesday. No idea how I would get there but I applied.
Also decided I AM applying to PA school. I have to. There is a paper weight we have on the counter here that says, “What would you do if you knew you could not fail?”. The other day I just walked by it and ‘apply to PA school’ immediately jumped into my head. That told me something. The thing is, I can’t really fail at applying. I could fail at getting in, I could fail at completing the program, but I can’t fail at applying. I CAN do that. And I will.
I just have so many things I want to do that my head starts spinning and my anxiety gets out of control. I have to just keep making a schedule for the day. And following the meal plan I made for myself. And being patient with both of those things.
I read this article last night, called “Do You Really Want What you Want?” The most important thing I got out of it: the only way anyone gets anywhere with anything is by making a plan, setting up a timeline and schedule, and just doing it. The author is talking about writing and making a writing program for yourself.
Random: I am so tan. And I love it. 😉 California sunshine!