I for some reason have had this skyrocket of anxiety again the last two days. Trouble with worrying and staying in the moment. I can’t concentrate on anything and I get SO overwhelmed by all these ideas running around in my head that I want to do but can’t thanks to both my nerve disorder and the immobilization that comes from my anxiety. I don’t know what’s up and why I had a reprieve for awhile and now the battle is going again. But it is not as intense as before thanks to the good improvements in my life and I am fighting so hard. I just feel like I can’t DO anything right now.
I keep thinking how I wish my brain would just SHUT UP and stay in the moment! But there are a lot of things to battle against in my brain when my arms keep my computer time limited. Don’t worry though, I am talking back to it!
So right now I was thinking about this Buddhist temple B and I visited in Phuket last fall. It is called Wat Chalong and is the biggest Buddhist temple on Phuket island. It was so peaceful to walk along the grounds. It was a holy day there on the day we visited. Well, they called it a feast day, and I don’t remember exactly what it was about, but yeah. There were a lot of people there offering prayers up to the Buddha in one of the temple buildings that housed a famous Thai monk’s remains. I sent out this prayer from my heart that my feet and ankles (nerve pain, etc) would get better. Well, they aren’t totally better, obviously, but on that day, on the temple grounds, I walked around for almost an hour without pain. It was really amazing. I got to sight-see and explore. When I left, I said, “Thank you, Buddha.” I am not a true Buddhist but I love the philosophy of eastern religions and try to incorporate it into my life. Anyway, that’s my story for the day.
Have you ever had an experience like that where you could just feel something spiritual?