Just had the most delicious salad involving:
- Black beans (1/3 of a can)
- approx. 2 oz. smoked salmon (my dad recently went to alaska and brought back over 50 pounds of salmon and halibut that he caught himself – he has been smoking it and while he is still perfecting the technique, it’s pretty good!)
- 1/4 of an avocado
- Annie’s Lite Honey Mustard vinagrette
It was good, and I feel healthy and fresh now. I am proud of myself for eating earlier before I am shaky and starving. I often don’t feel real hunger, although I am getting better at it, but I when I start to feel really restless and have trouble concentrating, it means something to me. I am proud for eating when I started to get hungry and not making myself wait til it is later (which I do so I don’t have to deal with it for very long before I can go to bed).
No pic of the salad but when I get my own camera, I may start taking some food pictures. I actually don’t really like when people’s blogs have THAT many food pictures, but it is special sometimes. I like recipes too. However, frankly, I don’t have that great of an appetite that much and am not a great foodie, but I think it is good for me to get a little excited about food and about dishes I make. I think it is good for me to accept that that is okay!
Overall good day today, although it isn’t over yet. Evenings can get hard sometimes. I went to church, went swimming, went to my cousin’s football game (loved it – playing sports are my best memories from childhood – he is 9 years old), ran errands, came home and studied (and could actually concentrate on math for once), and here I am.
When I get anxious about the evenings, I write out a plan on a sticky note and put it on the front of my book (which I pretty much carry with my everywhere). I look at it when I get anxious about the time stretching before me. It looks something like this:
830 shut brain off and read
900 can go to bed
When there are more hours covered, I will add in blocks that look like study, read, mini-walk, repeat. I give myself breaks of 30 minutes or so to read my novel. I sometimes constantly have to tell myself it is okay during those 30 minutes to relax and read…but that’s when I look at my list and see it is marked in. I do the same thing after “my shut off brain” time.