If you haven’t already gathered this by now, I am sort of obsessed with Summer. All winter, which is kind of long in Colorado, I just wait and wait for Summer (and yes I capitalize it 🙂 ). That is how I get through it, just reminding myself that Spring and Summer are to come. My dad is just like me. We are always cold and can’t wait for the heat! So I am a happy camper on this longest day of the year.
On the pain front: feeling good! I think the combination of medicines I am on now is really helping, along with the anti-inflammatory gel. I had a good swim today and was able to kick one lap breast stroke today and yesterday and not suffer the rest of the day for it. I just dream of when this will be totally over.
Some thoughts on my upcoming school stuff: I have just been a little confused lately about it. Like I have mixed feelings – kind of excited but sad. I feel sad because I know it will be good but my nerve problems are keeping me from what I really want to do – nursing or pharmacy school. I am nervous to take out loans again and to push myself learning in an area that is really different to me – not science and involving pushing myself to network and be a people person.
So I need to decide if I should just go with it and push myself and then go to pharmacy school after that. I started doubting everything after my phone conversation/interview with the phD that runs the program.
Hopefully, I can get a job and then wouldn’t have to take out very much in loans. It will only be 800 or so for each 8-wk class. That is only 400 a month,; I could pay that every month as i go along if i have a job.I just have to wait for my disabilty and then I can get a job, and it will allow me to move at my own pace for now.
I keep reminding myself that I will have to transition from “student” to “work” sometime. I just have to have confidence in myself.
- What is your favorite season?
- Do you have any advice about my school situation? How do you deal with leaping into something, especially when you lack self-confidence in general? I really believe that making yourself do things outside of your comfort zone is what builds confidence.