I don’t know what happened today, I was just so exhausted.
I am just SO full of fear all the time.
I MISS YOU and I hate this and I want it to be over, I want everything to be okay, I want my life back. My whole heart hurts and I am scared and I am so lonely. I don’t know what to do. I messed up many times today but I am most upset about tonight because I had a good dinner with my mom and sister and everything was fine and then my head spun. I am going to do things differently tomorrow and take my medicine and just do the right thing this week and rest and cry as much as I need to. Why is it so hard to be KIND to myself?
I just want the hurt to go away. I AM EXHAUSTED, I am so tired from fighting, my mind is failing me. Just so scared, I wake up shaking in fear every morning.